I have always liked to do whatever I can to “fix” things or figure them out.
In college, I went to my professors' office hours consistently to make sure I was on the right track. In teaching, I was always talking with my mentors to try to “get it right,” and when Asher was born, I was always on Google trying to figure out how to get him to sleep, what milestones he should be reaching, and anything else baby related.
So naturally, as we have started our transition to South Sudan, I have wanted to find any resources I could to help things go smoothly.
I have been on Google researching how to adjust kids to jet lag, dosages of malaria medication, what immunizations to get for the kids, and what freeze-dried foods are important to bring and how much. But there are some things that are simply out of my control and can’t be researched.
God has been teaching me something that I should have learned a long time ago, and that is the power and the peace of prayer. When Asher is acting out with his behavior because of all the transitions, I pray every night that he can feel the peace of Christ and that his little heart will not be troubled. When Michael is getting his immunizations ahead of schedule, I pray for his health. When I think about the ministry we have been trained to do, I have to pray for the Lord to take control because it seems to big, almost impossible, for me and Brad to tackle on our own.
Though I am tempted to say, “All I can do is pray,” when it comes to these things, the fact is that prayer is not “all” we can do, but THE thing to do! I am so tempted to think that prayer is the last resort sometimes, the hail Mary pass when I have to throw up my hands in helplessness. But this simply could not be further from the truth.
Prayer is the most powerful thing we can participate in as believers. John 3:36 says “He must become greater and I must become less.” I am excited to see, as I learn more about prayer through our journey to Tonj, how powerful the Lord is and how much greater He is than my measly efforts to control everything.